The seasons of life and goals Day 84
Oct 1, 2018
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Si81sjODc0c

hey you guys yay so I am here today I
promise it is 6:30 yes I have not logged
anything today it has been a very
relaxing chillout seems day to day
remember Sunday's our mommy's day so I
opted to stay home and watch most of a
video today and that was about it I
really didn't do a whole lot I just
stuck around the house and let the kids
play they are taking out all their toys
and I got this thing in the mail today
someone to show you guys yeah okay no
right now okay
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anyways it's this which clearly I've
already taken part of it out of the
package but it is a mini trimmer okay
Omar please stop this I just wanted to
kind of bring you guys alone I try this
and see how it works
we'll see if ya know I am eyebrows or
anything else lists by the time so see
take my glasses safe hi
what do you mean what am i doing I'm
just recording that I'm doing my brows
no it couldn't be any worse than me waxy
naman let's try this out
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oh I like this you guys if you don't
have one you're missing out Wow
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please stop you can get your unibrow
boy
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I haven't totally missing out
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yeah cuz there's like no way that you
could ever get a trimmer to go in not
trimmer but like you could never get
like a shaver to ever go in and really
just shave what you're wanting up so
this way now this is a battery-operated
trimmer I wish there was a way to like
get it to where you could charge it that
would be really nice you guys have it a
baby smooth oh my gosh you guys that
thing was perfect like I just my face
feels so smooth I was told about it and
I thought oh I'll just try it and just
see because you know sometimes I just
don't have time to pull the waxine stuff
out and so I was like well why not so
but I hope you guys are having a really
good day I just you know like I was
saying I really kind of just had a
chillax day laid low by back when I went
to bed yesterday my back was really
hurting me my Mir needs to be put away
my uh my back was hurting me really bad
so I did take some ibuprofen this
morning when I woke up they're actually
ordering the parts on Tuesday and then
the chair has to go to the chair doctor
and have some surgery done on it to make
it better and so I think it has to do
with my chair is why my my back in my
back of my legs are hurting but other
than that it was just a slow slow day if
you guys want to see the mess that we're
gonna be about ready to clean up here
pretty soon I'll show ya and I also did
Ollie took the kids
I didn't video it because again I just
wasn't in the mood to change and stuff
but um I did scrub the house again
clearly not gonna look like it I'll show
you my bathroom though here in just a
little bit
that was fun I'd put some decorations up
in there and stuff so I'm really excited
about that
but yeah let me show you your arms this
is what they dumped out the entire just
a little bit okay that's good Omar sit
down and drink you have your soda water
oh you're done now cuz you want that I
don't think she does I'm gonna cry
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that's good at throw
stop-stop-stop-stop-stop honey you've
already had water messes okay when
you're done with your cup you put it out
the table please so it doesn't spill no
not my table go put it on the dinner
table Omari you're starting to spill go
put it on the dinner table please good
job Esther put it on the table
good job you guys
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this was made today hey guys welcome to
Sunday I cannot believe the weekend is
already over like where did this weekend
go I don't know I mean clearly Saturday
I had mom's day and then sundar today I
had some time to myself too I opted to
stay home because I just it was nasty
rainy mess and I just wasn't really
clearly in the mood to deal with any of
that so I was just like yeah I think I'm
just gonna stay home I turned on my
diffuser and I watched a movie which was
so good it's called till death do us
part
I'm not done with it yet honestly I
haven't finished it I got I'll see
easily I'm like halfway but I'm not all
the way yet done with it so I'm really
excited to see how it's gonna end
because it's and then I made my towels
that you guys seen in my bathroom and I
did a couple DIYs this weekend which I'm
so so so so so excited to show you guys
hmm and I think what I'm gonna go ahead
and do is oops come here honey come here
you have it stuck um so I was telling
ollie because I like doing so many DIYs
and I obviously want to make them and
show them to you guys so what I think
I'm gonna do is probably after fault
okay that's right I need you to wait
probably after fall I'm thinking of
investing in like a I don't want like a
white shark or new but I'm thinking like
a cream-based shower curtain and that
way it goes with all of the different
sea
that's Omar's pajama for the different
seasons and so I'm really excited
because they think that I'm gonna do
that for every season I will change my
décor in my bathroom because it's easy
to get bored of your decor at least I do
and I just want something that is I
don't know I don't know how to say it
but like I want something that I could
change up so if I have the beige white
esra no this one is all Mars if I have
like a beige shower curtain then I can
just build off of that and do fall
winter spring and summer do you ever
come to sometimes come into like your
day and be like I'm such an a different
season of life than my friends I just I
don't know I don't maybe maybe it's just
me but you know I mean I'm 37 this year
and I was like sitting there thinking to
myself earlier today I was like you know
I'm 37 and in 37 years what have I
accomplished to what I want to
accomplish and or what have I
accomplished to what I want to
accomplish and I really sit and I asked
myself that a couple times today like
you know and you know the things that I
have accomplished so far is you know I
ran a successful business for 24 well
not 24 years but for eleven eleven years
but myself worked in the field for 24
years you know I have three beautiful
babies and one that looks down on us I
have an amazing husband that I couldn't
be more happier to be married to you
know I just really said and I asked
myself this question like why do I feel
like
I'm missing out on stuff you know at
night I guess the reason I asked that
question myself is like you know
sometimes I see people my age and it's
like they're still in that party phase
the you know bar hopping or club you
know club hopping and going and visiting
friends and you know which is that part
you know is I mean that could be any
season of life but you know I just I'm
such a homebody that I just don't feel
like that doesn't have to do with my
family and I mean clearly yes I like
having my time down don't get me wrong
but when I think of like having downtime
without my kids
that is like the farthest thing from my
mind is I want to go to a club it's like
I want peace and quiet
I won't I want a Netflix movie I want to
be left alone and you know and I'm not
saying again I'm not saying anything bad
about people that still go clubbing and
stuff like that like clearly if you can
do it do it and where I really want to
see my life go because there's so much
that I want to accomplish and it's only
gonna be physically able if I continue
to press forward and not give up and you
know I think everybody okay that's right
you're not dressing that is just about
how to streak her on my video but you
know I just like your guys's encouraging
comments when I was kind of frustrated
about like the channel growing and stuff
you guys are also right you know it
takes patience it takes time it takes
you know there's so much to having a
youtube channel it it definitely doesn't
evolve overnight you know and I clearly
am seeing that I think my channel is
doing very well you know I mean honestly
I do I see it growing and you guys are
right you guys see my numbers going up
it's just you know yeah I'm not at
35,000 people yet and I'm
not at a hundred and something thousand
sometimes I ask myself like some of
these channels I see these numbers and
I'm just like what am I doing wrong that
they're doing because I don't see that
I'm anything different that they're
doing that I'm not I'm not growing in
you know feeling sorry for myself
but you guys are so good at reminding me
of you know what's important what's what
we're working for and keeping the
keeping the vision straight and then
it's like okay and Amy what do you still
want to accomplish and there's just like
such a high volume of things that I want
to do you know I want to own my own home
I want you know my YouTube channel to
become successful and do good and be
able to really grow a good amount of
subs and enough for just money because I
I mean materialistic things to me don't
matter like I clearly I am one of the
least amount of materialistic person if
you I mean honestly I materials don't
they don't hold anything to me but the
friendships to do and the support does
so that's why I would love to see my
channel grow more and if I did get money
out of it I would love to take that
money and flip it right back into the
YouTube world and you know help people
that are hurting and you know like I
said before donate some of the money to
charities and go into women's shelters
and men shelters and you know donate
clothing to them and food and whatever I
could my ultimate one of my dreams that
I want to do one day well I would love
to do it at least once a month if not
more is I would love to go to like a
deli and go get you know sandwiches and
chips and drinks and take it to the
homeless park that's next to us and
offer mills out
the homeless that are hungry that don't
get that mill you know it breaks my
heart when I watch you know when I'm
driving by and I watch the people
digging through the garbage for a mill
it's it just cringes me so bad because I
hate it with all my heart to see these
people struggling so yeah if I made
money out of my youtube you better
believe that money's gonna be flipped
and used to help people and to help me
to help other people and you know the
the more that I want to accomplish in
life is so much far exceeding than what
I have already accomplished because I
really feel like I didn't start really
growing and living until I was about 30
then that's when I really felt like I
was really figuring out myself in my
life and who I was and who I want to
become and so I haven't felt like I've
accomplished as much as probably most
people met my age versus what I want to
accomplish and I see it so clearly in
the near future being able to exceed
these goals and things that I want to
see my life do but it's just crazy to me
where you know even like people that you
you would talk to on a daily basis you
now are totally opposites you know I
have one friend she I mean I I haven't
talked to her in a while but we were
really good friends and we have nothing
between each other or anything like that
but we just lived two opposite lives you
know she's going through a divorce and
you know she's really into kind of not
partying but partying I guess you would
say um you know when having that time
for herself
I think she's finding her identity not
being married and that's very I mean
that is very common you know
I mean her kids are her world of course
but we just are two different people and
it's so sad to me
though that just because were two
different types of people that our
relationship even changed in dynamics
you know so yeah I was just kind of what
I did today a lot of reflection nope
reflection a lot of reflecting on my
life and where I want to see blogging
enough today it was just one of those
days where clearly I just needed kind of
a whole day for myself and that's pretty
much what I did I like I said I did
clean scrubbed the house but I didn't
show it because I was dressed in shorts
and a tank top and I just didn't want to
change I was just in one of those moods
where I was like I just don't want to Jo
and do anything so yeah
but anyways tomorrow's a new day
tomorrow's a new start to a fresh week I
have counseling tomorrow so lots of
exciting things are coming about
tomorrow I will be going live to do the
drawing for the winner for the breast
cancer awareness wreath but you do not
have to be present to win the prize but
I have to hear from you within 24 hours
from that but for sure five o'clock
Pacific time I will be live again you do
not have to be there if you don't mean
if you can't but 24 hours within the
timeframe that I draw the name I do need
to hear from somebody that want it that
way then we can go forth with getting it
shipped out yeah so anyways I will also
make a short little note tonight and
post it it will be late but just as a
reminder of when I will be live because
I did kind of forget to act that
yesterday to my vlog so anyways I hope
you guys are doing amazing I am so so so
so so cited for next week and what all
has in store I cannot wait for you guys
to see the new craft that's coming
on Tuesday and I can't wait to chitchat
with you guys tomorrow
I will see you guys again then but until
then have a wonderful evening I will
check with you guys in the morning
before I go to counseling take care
sweet dreams
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it's not what you're doing get in the
moment
oh yeah show me some movement
